The start of summer only found me for a day down in the forest. The sun shone through the green canopy and it seemed like this week was going to be the start of something great. The sunshine however did not last for long and soon Clouds one again covered the blue sky. My mood went with it. I struggle with a disease called endometriosis which finds me most days waking up to extreme pain that goes on through the day in waves, a sudden pang can have me curled up on the floor in tears. The fatigue that this brings with it makes working life difficult, it’s hard to constantly be alert and aware when there is so much going on inside your body that people who don’t experience the same cannot understand. This last week it has been worse than normal, and by Friday I had completely broken down, all the pain and fatigue coupled with long and late work hours led me to a public and very embarrassing anxiety attack.
This weeks video takes off as I left the overwhelming heaviness of the forest with my puffy tear stained face and headed to the safely, comfort and wide open skies of the family farm. The weekend was spent quietly, enjoying the simplicity of farm life trying to wash away the last week and once again start fresh.
